Because this has been a daily thing for me lately. Or even any social media really. Not as much my Twitter, but there are moments I take a step back and look at it and I'm all "Who is this girl? That's not me, is it?"
I live-tweet Twilight movies (although some people loved it and though it was hilarious!), there's an abundance of Buzz-Feed quizzes, endless links to my blog, or I'm fangirling over something. Now, there are times when I'll post something and people will love it. That's awesome! But there are so many times when I look over all of my social media sites, and I can't help but wonder why the hell people still follow me. Sometimes I pity my friends who know me almost solely (if not entirely) through the internet.
(Or maybe they've all just blocked my posts and I don't realize it. Who knows?)
Does anyone else have this problem? Or am I just insecure?
One of my favorite bloggers, Nadine from Back East Blonde, wrote a fantastic post back in January about online personas. (You can read it by clicking here.) She talked about how her blog and online persona really is her - but it's not an accurate depiction of her completely. It shows certain sides of her, but not 100% everything. It's not because she's being fake or dishonest, but there are still aspects of her life and parts of her personality which don't always shine through on her blog and in social media.
I think that's true for me as well. I try my best to be honest and transparent on my blog. When I'm struggling with something, I find a way to talk about it. When I like something, I tell you all about it. If there is something major happening in my life I try to be sure I mention it on here. Yet, I can still tell there is only a certain persona of myself people see.
Generally, I do think it's accurate. I am a fangirl. I'm a geek. I love books. I think the writing on my blog reflects my own "voice" as much as it can. However... there is more to me than that.
From reading my blog you can't always see the day-to-day of my life. My relationship with my parents and my friends and co-workers. You don't see all of the things which make me laugh or cry. The snacks I always have on hand. The way my voice sounds or how I laugh at certain jokes. The way I look at people and how they look at me when we're having a conversation.
I feel like those who know me best would agree. Yes, I really am me on this blog and on social media, but it's not a 100% perfect depiction of who I am.
There's so much more to me (and to you!) than my Facebook page.
My hope is that people stick around enough to learn this and to see me. The REAL me.
Does anyone else feel this way?
On another note, I wanted to share with you my new blog t-shirt!
Whitney from I Wore Yoga Pants to Work has started a t-shirt line. Every month she comes out with a new design and you have two weeks to order it. Then the next month she comes out with a new t-shirt! It's pretty awesome and it makes me wish I had thought of such a great idea. Anyways, the shirt I ordered came in the mail today! It was exactly what I needed because today was a rough day at work. This put a smile on my face.
|You get a free cozy with your order!|
I LOVE this shirt! It's just as soft and comfortable as Whitney tells you on her blog. If you want to check out her blog and her t-shirt line, click here.
On yet another note- I'm still accepting sponsors for March! If you are interested I just added a "Work With Me" page on the blog and you can email me for details!